Today has been literally my breaking point. I always keep a positive mind about things but today is the last straw really. There's only so much a person can take.
Nothing in my life has been very accomplished. To be honest, I feel like a failure in life most of the time. No matter what I do, nothing good ever happens. And when something good happens I somehow mess it up for myself and get back to where I am now... a failure.
Also, I have been binge eating like crazy since the last post. Today I had 2 egg whites (30 calories) and 1/2 tbsp of margarine (50 calories). I don't think I want to eat anything else today. I just don't feel like eating at all. When I get emotional like this, I hate to eat. I actually have been cringing at the thought of even eating a lot now. I want to be skinnier. I want to be 105 lbs. If I can reach that goal then I will be happy. So happy.
I need all the support I can get for everyone here. I'm just sick of not being able to accomplish anything. I need to do this. To make myself a better person. I need this.
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